Tonight.

Hello blog. Tonight was an eventful night. Why do i say so? it is because i had a really big argument with my mom. it is stupid really from my point of view. Don't bother telling me to look at it from my mom point of view because she thinks everything is pointless apart from education and money. i argued with her because of this topic. JAPANESE LANGUAGE CLASS. YES. about a tiny weeny 12 sessions class. She won't sponsor me which was and still is the problem currently. Well first off i spoke to her in a nice guy fashion. Something like "hey mom can you sponsor me for jap language class? and she said no, that was fine but what made me angry was she started going off how i was rude to her and never listens to her. so i told her '' ok ok, i get it" and SHE STARTED RANTING ON THE TOPIC EVEN MORE!!! MY RESPONSE SHOULD AND WOULD HAVE RENDER HER MUTE ON THE TOPIC! BUT NO SHE JUST HAD TO CARRY ON THE BLOODY TOPIC. AND SHE EVEN TOLD ME TO QUIT KARATE!! WTF ITS MY PASSION NOW!! I'M REALLY PASSIONATE ABOUT IT! I GO TO IT EVERYDAY!!! SHE TOLD ME ITS USELESS AND A WASTE OF HER MONEY!! WTF HER M.O.N.E.Y?! I PAID FOR THE REST OF THE CLASS WITH MY SALARY!!! SHE JUST TOOK MY MONEY AND CONVERT IT INTO HERS!? DO YOU KNOW HOW IT PISSES ME OFF?!!

So being a natural mr nice guy son i was, i knock on her bedroom door to apologise. so i knock it softly and she didn't open the door, thats fine i thought she is asleep so i knock it in an ascending order in terms of loudness. yet no reply which pisses me even more. HERE I AM TRYING TO BE A NICE GUY! AND THEY ARE STILL IGNORING. oh btw do you know how do i know that they are awake? they were whispering saying "ignore him". SO I GOT PISSED OFF AND RAM THE DOOR. they finally open it and lo behold reprimanded me -.- nice climax eh? RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another that still pisses me off is the fact that my mom is not respecting me! DESPITE MY AGE!! I WAS A NICE GUY TO MY PARENTS I DIDN"T EMBARRASSED THEM IN FRONT OF RELATIVE NOR FRIENDS YET THEY DID IT TO ME IN FRONT OF THEIR FRIENDS RELATIVES EVEN TO MY GRANDPARENTS MY UNCLES MY AUNTIES WOW THEY JUST LIKE TO EMBARRASSED ME A LOT DON"T THEY!!!. I TRIED TO BE NICE BUT THEY WON'T LISTEN. THEY JUST FUCKING WON'T LISTEN. THEY HAVE EARDRUMS MADE OF STONES. HEART OUT OF SALT WATER. MOUTH MADE FROM CHILLI EYES OUT OF SPITE. I COULD HAVE SWORN THEIR PURPOSE IS TO MADE US THE CHILDREN THEIR SCAPEGOAT OF THEIR MISTAKES HUMILIATION. EVERYTHING OUR PASSION TO THEM IS WORTHLESS. THEY I COULD HAVE SWORN THAT THEY ARE TRYING TO MOLD US INTO THEIR IDEAL CHILDREN. Thats fine. JUST DON"T TRY TO TREAT US AS IF YOU WOULD WITH A DOG OR BABYS. WE HAVE EMOTIONS. I HAVE EMOTIONS. I HAVE BRAINS. I AM NOT STUPID. I CAN THINK. I HAVE EGOS TOO. I WANT TO DECIDE FOR MYSELF. I WANT YOU TO RESPECT ME! FOR 5 LONG YEARS I WAS THE NICE GUY. WHAT DID I GET? NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. NOT EVEN A SINGLE SHRED OF RESPECT. Seems like we are not standing on the same level. I'm afraid mr nice guy is gone. GOOD LUCK TO YOU. MY PARENTS

LOVE oops scuse me i wonder if you even LOVE ME AT ALL

Hairul